I was cheated.
He just liked me and I thought he was okay, so we started dating, then sleeping. I didn't really loved that guy, I never meant to marry him or spend my life with him or something. I think that's the main cause: he dreamed about family, imagining himself working from home at night and me getting our children to sleep, and then making him some coffee.
I was going through psychosis then, so life wasn't easy for me. I could be crying all night because... just because, smoking three strong cigarettes in a row, I could just stand up, put on the coat and go to drown myself in a river (luckily, he managed to stop me then). So... it definitely wasn't the best time to meet me :)
He went to another city for holiday once. There he met a girl that looks a lot like me, but she is taller, I guess smarter, and not the asocial type (as I am). And boobies, she had nice big boobies (mine are A, hahaha so funny). So... you can guess what happened next, but I haven't known it yet.
When he returned, I was at my home town on holiday (living together with my family is a bit of hell, so my mental health was getting even worse). He insisted to meet, telling that he missed me, wanted me, etc. We met once more, had sex. It was okay at first, but then I felt that something was wrong. Some days later we broke up, he told absolute nonsense, I didn't believed what he said. Month after I've seen their photos and everything got at it's place...
Losing him wasn't painful at all. Getting to know he's dating another girl made me even happy, I just wish him the best, he's a nice guy (but when he cheated not telling me anything he acted like a jerk, if he told me directly I would understand). But feeling all alone, with no one to talk to, no one to tell me everything's gonna be ok, no one to wait for me to come back - that was actually heartbreaking. I asked myself - why he had to do it now, when I'm all alone with my demons, stuck in four walls for two months. I realised clearly he doesn't owe me anything and it is just my (and only my!) problem... The heart was still heavy.
They are married now, she cut her hair and gained weight, hah. No children, if it's important. I still can't understand her: leaving good university, getting married at 19... I don't blame, I just freakin can not understand! Maybe I just don't know enough to get it... Or maybe it's a big strong love :)
Some of my friends cheated on their boyfriends. I don't really care (even if they shared this with me, it's still not my business), but I felt slightly disgusted... She's a friend of mine, I know him as a nice person and caring boyfriend, and then this... I don't think cheating is okay. I can't stand the lies, and the cheat is a huge lie. And also a betrayal - the partner thinks they are the one and only, but in fact they are not... Even if you are not really into that person, it's not a great feeling, trust me.
I just want my partner to be honest with me. That excludes cheating.
I should mention that I don't mean open relationship and another polygamy now. I wouldn't accept that in my own relationship, but if everyone is aware and happy, nothing is wrong in this case.
Sorry for lots of words.
He just liked me and I thought he was okay, so we started dating, then sleeping. I didn't really loved that guy, I never meant to marry him or spend my life with him or something. I think that's the main cause: he dreamed about family, imagining himself working from home at night and me getting our children to sleep, and then making him some coffee.
I was going through psychosis then, so life wasn't easy for me. I could be crying all night because... just because, smoking three strong cigarettes in a row, I could just stand up, put on the coat and go to drown myself in a river (luckily, he managed to stop me then). So... it definitely wasn't the best time to meet me :)
He went to another city for holiday once. There he met a girl that looks a lot like me, but she is taller, I guess smarter, and not the asocial type (as I am). And boobies, she had nice big boobies (mine are A, hahaha so funny). So... you can guess what happened next, but I haven't known it yet.
When he returned, I was at my home town on holiday (living together with my family is a bit of hell, so my mental health was getting even worse). He insisted to meet, telling that he missed me, wanted me, etc. We met once more, had sex. It was okay at first, but then I felt that something was wrong. Some days later we broke up, he told absolute nonsense, I didn't believed what he said. Month after I've seen their photos and everything got at it's place...
Losing him wasn't painful at all. Getting to know he's dating another girl made me even happy, I just wish him the best, he's a nice guy (but when he cheated not telling me anything he acted like a jerk, if he told me directly I would understand). But feeling all alone, with no one to talk to, no one to tell me everything's gonna be ok, no one to wait for me to come back - that was actually heartbreaking. I asked myself - why he had to do it now, when I'm all alone with my demons, stuck in four walls for two months. I realised clearly he doesn't owe me anything and it is just my (and only my!) problem... The heart was still heavy.
They are married now, she cut her hair and gained weight, hah. No children, if it's important. I still can't understand her: leaving good university, getting married at 19... I don't blame, I just freakin can not understand! Maybe I just don't know enough to get it... Or maybe it's a big strong love :)
Some of my friends cheated on their boyfriends. I don't really care (even if they shared this with me, it's still not my business), but I felt slightly disgusted... She's a friend of mine, I know him as a nice person and caring boyfriend, and then this... I don't think cheating is okay. I can't stand the lies, and the cheat is a huge lie. And also a betrayal - the partner thinks they are the one and only, but in fact they are not... Even if you are not really into that person, it's not a great feeling, trust me.
I just want my partner to be honest with me. That excludes cheating.
I should mention that I don't mean open relationship and another polygamy now. I wouldn't accept that in my own relationship, but if everyone is aware and happy, nothing is wrong in this case.
Sorry for lots of words.
