i just don't feel safe in my country and there's no way i can get out of here any time soon because of all the economic problems
how is everyone doing, really? vent to me baby.
bad
just found out that one of my friends is still actively friends with people who viciously lied about me/slandered me on twitter and I just,,, idk like I know it's none of my business who she is friends with but it just feels really hard to trust her right now, and that sucks because I Want to trust her and we have confided in each other a lot and I thought we were good friends.
I'm very lazy, but tomorrow I will start studying at my social sciences.
slowdanci
I've not been doing well. I'm afraid of intimacy with my girlfriend because of the sexual assault I went through when I was a kid. I feel like she deserves better. Someone who can satisfy her intimate needs, I just don't think she can wait for as long as I think I'm going to need to be completely ready.
Cryptic <//////3
im just overall, feeling terrible. my college apps are all due in the next two days and i have to catch up on all the homework I missed for all my classes that im failing before the semester ends or ill be on academic probation and won't get to graduate. my mom is overbearing and abusive, so I dont feel safe at home but she won't let me leave. not to mention, my best friend told me she doesn't want to be friends with me anymore and it hurt so much I got physically sick. i dont think I can trust anyone anymore and im spiraling. ive started relying on substances again and i had just came to terms with my su*cidal tendencies before this. idk what to do anymore. I feel worthless
still trying to come to turns with my trans identity and building up the courage to tell my family and friends, it’s a tough journey but i’m taking one step at a time :)
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Idk where to dump this so here i am. Recently ive been getting signs from my spiritual guides to reach out to an old friend of mine. We didnt end off on bad terms or anything i just have this really bad habit of distancing myself from everyone who isnt my boyfriend due to paranoia and many other factors. Its been a year since i last talked to them and i decided to send a message today. They havent replief yet but i do think they saw it at least once, and they havent been online since. Its very anxiety-inducing because im terribly afraid of rejection but i guess i deserve it for being distant even if its uncontrollable. Part of what makes me feel so nervous about this is that we used to be so tightly knit together so itd be a shame if this was thrown away entirely by them blocking me or something . I feel like they replaced me with someone who seems to be a younger version of myself. That makes me sad but again i do deserve it i suppose. I just wish theyd reply already, wven if its to say no. I think the combination of waiting for an answer and getting rejected is whats making me feel like im gonna vomit, at this point even if im rejected i’ll br fine i just wanna feel less vomit-y. I hate that i always end up doing this with friendships but i literally cant control it. Idk whatever. Also i dont really need advice or anything i just wanted to let it out thats all
19, she/he pronouns ONLY. Barely on the site anymore so don’t bother. Please don’t interact with me if we aren’t friends, it makes me incredibly uncomfortable and anxious.
truly tired of living in this generation and whats happening now...I just want to go back to the 90s and see my faves in concert without worries.
"Loving you was like loving the dead"
I had BIG crushes on two close friends last year, they both rejected me (which I don’t hold against them bc obviously that’s their right) but I stayed very close friends with each of them (though I did take a break from them after each rejection to try and get over them). I thought I had gotten over them but I’m realizing now that I never really did, bc I still keep thinking of them in romantic ways u_u I know that nothing is going to happen with either of them but for some reason i can’t release my crushes on them
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nullplayer
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Legal Alien - lvl 44
mbbybbby
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State Minister - lvl 270
CarCrashBimbo
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Senator - lvl 57
Susan Slutzky
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Senator - lvl 260
Eunyce
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Fashion Manager - lvl 260
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Senator - lvl 77
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Citizen - lvl 163
Sandi Lut
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State Minister - lvl 289
Mollie Mollie
- 2310 points
Citizen - lvl 139
Isolde
- 2281 points
Citizen - lvl 210
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Yariman
- 511 points
Senator - lvl 18
thecoquettebabe
- 321 points
Legal Alien - lvl 8
AikiraSora
- 307 points
Senator - lvl 77
sachele
- 269 points
Legal Alien - lvl 19
Favourite Worst Nightmare
- 263 points
Citizen - lvl 288
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Best fighters this week:
Spiffyfunpants
- 53 points
Senator - lvl 301
Eunyce
- 33 points
Fashion Manager - lvl 260
SilentlyScreaming
- 33 points
Citizen - lvl 59
leopardluvr
- 26 points
Citizen - lvl 40
califlower
- 18 points
Fashion Designer - lvl 75
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Best debaters this week:
califlower
- 20 points
Fashion Designer - lvl 75
sachele
- 11 points
Legal Alien - lvl 19
Layla Zenin
- 11 points
Citizen - lvl 210
Kyele
- 10 points
Citizen - lvl 196
SilentlyScreaming
- 10 points
Citizen - lvl 59
