Speak to someone you can't speak to right now

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Freethinkerland
31.03.2020 16:06:20
trashysweetheart

keep it anonymous.
i'll start.

x,
i have so much love for you, but you know this. you once made me happy and now make me feel empty. i wish you could be honest with me. you pretend to be so open about your feelings and yet you're not. why did you come over? you knew what it would do to me. you were in my bedroom, just like you used to be. you read all my thoughts but told me none of yours. am i wrong to feel like you owe it to me? why can you leave so many things unsaid? i'll never get into your head like you have mine

31.03.2020 16:06:20
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Agnostica
31.03.2020 16:18:44
Alexstrasza

This is a very interesting idea!

Just a precautionary warning: don't abuse this thread to "anonymously" trash talk other players on the forums. The first post didn't do that, but I felt like I needed to set the boundaries before anyone got any ideas :)

On topic: dear X, I know what you did and I don't hold it against you. I wish you'd confess and get it out in the open though. Surely it's weighing you down heavily just as it is me. Please show me that you respect me as a person and admit the truth, I don't want you to take this with you to your grave. I condemn the action but I still love you with all my heart and I know you didn't do it with the intent of hurting anyone. So please, make things right. I'll love you all the more for it.

31.03.2020 16:18:44
Such misplaced zeal... Their eyes remain closed to the true path. Not like you... my devoted Chosen...
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Reasonopia
01.04.2020 00:52:53
AlienPrinceFromVenus

Yeah, why not.

Though I forgave your mistake and am proud of you for being able to change your views, becoming a more accepting person, I can never regain the trust I had for you that is now lost. Or the ruined years that were supposed to be my "fun teens". The mental damage is there and it's not going to go away. I have had to to find ways to learn to live with it (thank you therapy, try it out), and that is burden of mine that you occasionally complain about, but also had a hand in creating. I wish I had the courage to tell it to your face, how much that one moment of ignorant hate truly affected my life, but I guess I'm bitching about it here instead because I can't trust you to understand that. I can forgive the mistake but I can't erase the effect.

01.04.2020 00:52:53
They/Them 
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Secville
01.04.2020 01:11:16
Poison Black

X,
You should be the one who care about me, but I know you can't. You live in your own fantasy, in this glamorous dead dream of fame and stardoom. I feel sorry about you, but it doesn't matter 'cuz you can't see me behind all those lies you tell to yourself, and we fall apart a long time ago. While you strugle to enforce this dream to come true, acting like a star, I try so hard to be someone who caught your attention, but I never be able to captivate you and this destroy me. Now, I don't want to fake it anymore and I don't wanna think that I'm not good enough, so I'll do my best to believe in myself and to fight for my own dream. Sometimes, I'm afraid that I could be just like you, and this hold me back. But as long as I can choose, I'll not let that happen.

01.04.2020 01:11:16


Surprise, b*tch! Something Wicked is coming, and I guess it's me! Who's the baddest witch in town? ;)
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Freethinkerland
01.04.2020 01:17:56
Cum_Dumpster

I think I went into shock when I found out that you'd passed away, and I'm still in it. It feels strange, that the world could lose such a wonderful kind person, yet keep turning, with people out there never knowing who they lost without ever knowing their name or face. My logical brain says that this is the reality and that it happens every day, yet my emotional heart can't seem to grasp the words, like two people speaking different languages. I envy the people that are wellsprings of emotion, they seem to be able to summon tears on command, they can mourn and cleanse their bodies and grieve in the normal way. I cannot do that, no matter how desperately I may wish it. The tears don't come and only leave anger and regret in an empty wake. I wish I could speak to you again, and tell you all the things that seemed so inconsequential before now. Things that I'd always said "oh, they can wait another day" or "Oh, we're both busy, I can tell them next week". My heart likes to remind me that you believed in very Christian things, like God and Heaven, so perhaps the strength of your belief landed your soul in the Heaven so often spoke of. Of all the Christians I have known, you are one of the few that truly deserved that paradise, I believe. It's one thing to claim to be of a religion, but another entirely to practice it, both in good times and in bad, and remain humble, loyal, and accepting. You taught me that not all religious people are the intolerant and spiteful. You never looked upon me differently, even when I tried to poke holes in your believes. In fact, you laughed and entertained my own terrible generalizations about "all religious people" with the same humility I came to know was just how you were.
I miss you, and I hope that wherever you are, you are happy, pain-free, and surrounded by your loved ones. Don't look over your shoulder, and don't worry about those that you left behind(though I know you'll do both). I don't want you to worry about the future of the living. We'll get by, one way or another, and for your descendants, I think that one day, you'll be reunited with them and it will be a joyous occasion.

01.04.2020 01:17:56
ChumDumpster's wife irl  
Update 2022: Site has been soured for me so I took a break. Still not certain about coming back...
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Atheista
02.04.2020 03:41:05
peeslurper69

i think of you randomly from time to time. i don't know if i miss you? or if i just get nostalgic? i don't know, but when i see our mutual friends interacting with you on like twitter or instagram, it's hard for me not to be like. damn. wish you didn't hate my guts. it's probably for the better this way anyway cuz you fucked me up pretty bad lmfao. but sometimes i do consider messaging you just to say hi and wish you well. i hate the way we ended and even though you'd probably block me if i did, i would like to have SOME sort of Actual closure and not just - Bye !

02.04.2020 03:41:05
your reluctant optimist 
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Atheista
02.04.2020 08:28:07
dickbug

this is a cool thread, i hope everyone here is getting some sort of closure by doing this <3  

dad - wish we had a better relationship. i know it's what you've missed out on with your dad. i can't blame you for it. when you tried to have that conversation i froze up because i don't know how to talk to you. and my friends have such great relationships with their dads. i keep thinking it'll be better when i move out. i don't really know what to do. i'd ask you for help, but it is hard to be vulnerable around you. i think i've held too many grudges for all your shortcomings. and it's almost ingrained into my image of you - all those things you've said about my appearance and my anxiety and comparisons you make with me and my sisters. it's so blurry and muddled in my mind that i don't know if it's even possible to have a better relationship. could i be a better daughter? or could you be a better father? i don't know.

02.04.2020 08:28:07
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Atheista
14.12.2020 23:27:38
Easy

I know you can see this mess we have to call our family... or have to call my family.
I wish you were here. Everything would be so much different. Brother wouldn´t be as cold hearted maybe and Sister would´ve not be that mean to me... maybe I could´ve have a normal relationship with Mother. But the most important part is that I could´ve have a relationship with you Babo/Dad. Everybody tells me how many similarities we have and everybody thinks we would´ve had a awesome relationship but yk ... It sadly didn´t happen. I feel so alone. Everybody left me although they are physically here. When I was the most vulnerable they left me and now they ask themself why I am the way I am? I cried myself so many times to sleep wishing I was with you although I only got to know you for a year and the sad part is I cant remeber anything because I was just a child. I know you would´ve want me to push through it and do the stuff I enjoy and ... just live my life but its HARD when you don´t have a family who you know who have your back. I´m scared of them that they will yell at me, lie to me or just straight up hurt me. You dont wanna know how manny times I wished you haven met Mother just so I could´ve never expierence this pain and sadness. But I also know that your biggest wish was to have a family. I wish I couldve made YOUR wish come true but I have failed you. I´m sorry... but I still hope you´re somewhat proud of me. The future is long but it doesnt look bright to me.
I will always love you although I dont know you.


Sorry I definitely have some writting mistakes but I´m just too lazy to correct them ♥

14.12.2020 23:27:38
                                                                          
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Secville
15.12.2020 00:14:53
Forest Witch

Hey grandma.
I know that you've talked shit about me, but it wasn't even the real me. I drink, smoke sometimes, I have multiple mental health problems you don't know about - since I care about you too much to be anything other than the granddaughter you want - and YOU are partially responsible for it.
You shamed my body. You HIT ME, A LITTLE KID, in my face when I couldn't sleep. YOU ABUSED ME by barging into my bath, you contributed greatly in me developing an eating disorder. And guess what, I'm relieved I'm not spending xmas with you this year. Really.
Yes, I love you, since I have found it in me to come to understand you. But I do not forgive you.

15.12.2020 00:14:53
“She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasn’t supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something.” - Rainbow Rowell
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Freethinkerland
16.12.2020 23:13:26
LacunaBatata

I hope you are okay wherever you are <3

16.12.2020 23:13:26
 

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