MonsterGaGa Wrote: Never knew life only starts at 30 lol! I always worried that I would have to be an adult all of a sudden, but realized quickly that it is not the case - thank goodness! [end quote]
I wish everyone could understand how wise this statement is. I was a widow by age 30 with two children. Also an orphan myself, with no extended family. Lost in a wilderness. What is a woman to do?
I lost myself in WORK. Real work, not the internet bullshit of today's society. At the time I just kept a simple job that allowed me time to grow my young children into adulthood even though I had an un-limited bank account.
If I did nothing but sit still I would have grown fat and lazy waiting for my children to return home from school. I would have died, PERSONALLY. BOTH IN BODY AND SPIRIT. I maintained my dance studio and danced alone with ghost's.
It is a difficult thing to describe what it is like to become an older woman to teen's. Life doesn't end once your 30. For me life began. My teen year's are a perfect example of foolishness. Getting naked for drinks and money. Fame to be caught on film. Suddenly a man who I married took me away from that, and I had his children and I learned a new way of life. Then he died. Ouch !!!!!
A music producer re-discovered me in a club, and hired me as his personal assistant, and he saved my life too. My children were adult's and didn't need me anymore. Can you imagine a job being just 'eye-candy'. I was 38 year's old... It wasn't degrading at all.
My job was simple. Chase off his admirers/ fan-girls. Being beautiful during my 30's. I was taken to club's, and dressed in the finest clothes. Sex was not even expected nor an option. I was just an actress. He even went to jail for 6 months for defending my honor in a bar fight that turned into a riot.
[Just because a drunken 'cowboy' touched my ass while we were playing a game of pool.]
Then I just became his best friend for year's. Still am to this day. I no longer dance for him because my other interest's in law enforcement makes him a bit nervous now. I can understand his need for associations with a more criminal element. I don't approve, but locally I've become a bit famous for some of my rescues, so I can't be seen with him publicly anymore.
"Life" when taken in the context of YEAR'S, is fascinating.
I'm just glad I didn't have my whole life spent texting on a cell phone. I Got To Live something amazing. Joy,Hurt,pain, and relief. Dare I say even: Salvation through the mercy of GOD.
I wish everyone could understand how wise this statement is. I was a widow by age 30 with two children. Also an orphan myself, with no extended family. Lost in a wilderness. What is a woman to do?
I lost myself in WORK. Real work, not the internet bullshit of today's society. At the time I just kept a simple job that allowed me time to grow my young children into adulthood even though I had an un-limited bank account.
If I did nothing but sit still I would have grown fat and lazy waiting for my children to return home from school. I would have died, PERSONALLY. BOTH IN BODY AND SPIRIT. I maintained my dance studio and danced alone with ghost's.
It is a difficult thing to describe what it is like to become an older woman to teen's. Life doesn't end once your 30. For me life began. My teen year's are a perfect example of foolishness. Getting naked for drinks and money. Fame to be caught on film. Suddenly a man who I married took me away from that, and I had his children and I learned a new way of life. Then he died. Ouch !!!!!
A music producer re-discovered me in a club, and hired me as his personal assistant, and he saved my life too. My children were adult's and didn't need me anymore. Can you imagine a job being just 'eye-candy'. I was 38 year's old... It wasn't degrading at all.
My job was simple. Chase off his admirers/ fan-girls. Being beautiful during my 30's. I was taken to club's, and dressed in the finest clothes. Sex was not even expected nor an option. I was just an actress. He even went to jail for 6 months for defending my honor in a bar fight that turned into a riot.
[Just because a drunken 'cowboy' touched my ass while we were playing a game of pool.]
Then I just became his best friend for year's. Still am to this day. I no longer dance for him because my other interest's in law enforcement makes him a bit nervous now. I can understand his need for associations with a more criminal element. I don't approve, but locally I've become a bit famous for some of my rescues, so I can't be seen with him publicly anymore.
"Life" when taken in the context of YEAR'S, is fascinating.
I'm just glad I didn't have my whole life spent texting on a cell phone. I Got To Live something amazing. Joy,Hurt,pain, and relief. Dare I say even: Salvation through the mercy of GOD.
