I'd been having a good few days, I'd been taking a short break from bimboland, and in the past couple days it seems life has thrown a curveball again. Yesterday my mom and I were going to run some errands and her car broke down and it's totaled. A friend lent her old car for the time being but idk what my mom is gonna do. And today I'd been having a pretty decent day, I played Genshin Impact a bunch (I just started I know I'm late) and I get a call from my dad asking why I wasn't responding to texts from his wife (who I blocked in September after a different fiasco) and any time I talk to my dad I want to jump out of the solar system so I don't have to, so I had about an hour long panic attack. My mom ended up texting him about what I did and why because I'm a huge baby with no spine and he didn't respond to her or text me or call me so obviously he's mad. Which is fine but I just wish I could throw my phone away and fake my death so I never have to deal with him ever again. On one hand idk how much longer I can be in contact with him but on the other hand I am 100% unable to cut him off. I'm just way too afraid. It really feels like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.
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im autistic, so its always been hard for me to make friends/build relationships, and im tired of being lonely. i keep having dreams that i have bfs, and for a short time i feel happy. then i wake up. its agony knowing that i have one friend and ive never been in a real relationship before. im 18 and ive never even kissed anyone before. im just tired. i want a bf so bad, but im just undesirable. plus, im non binary, which turns guys away. it just hurts rn. im sick of being alone
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THAT bitch wrote:
im autistic, so its always been hard for me to make friends/build relationships, and im tired of being lonely. i keep having dreams that i have bfs, and for a short time i feel happy. then i wake up. its agony knowing that i have one friend and ive never been in a real relationship before. im 18 and ive never even kissed anyone before. im just tired. i want a bf so bad, but im just undesirable. plus, im non binary, which turns guys away. it just hurts rn. im sick of being alone.THAT bitch my heart is breaking a little. Sometimes we want something so much that our desperate want for that thing becomes as much if not more of an issue than anything else. I don’t know you personally, all i know is what i see of your activity on here. And what i see is someone who is very creative, insightful, intelligent, empathic and who communicates very well. I don’t see any of the negative traits that perhaps you think make you undesirable. We all have our idiosyncrasies and quirks, and i could list mine and make myself sound undesirable but that wouldn’t be good for me and my self esteem and i don’t do that anymore, and i don’t think you should see your idiosyncrasies as faults either. The world is wonderfully diverse and I am certain there is a match for you. I am alone too btw and dream of being in a loving relationship (again) one day. I am older than you and have been in relationships in the past but have not necessarily made great choices. I aim to make better choices in the future and I care less if people turn away from me because i want to be sure that the next person i am involved with is with me because they are serious about me. Don’t rush into a relationship because you desperately want to be in a relationship because those relationships generally don’t last long or end well. If you need help to navigate relationships then don’t be shy in asking your parents or a close relative or trusted family friend for advice. Take care and good luck xx
Sarah said some great things about relationships. I am older than THAT Bitch, also. I didn't have a serious relationship until after University....let's see...I was 22? Sounds about right. But, like Sarah, I didn't necessarily make great choices. I know people who didn't date until they were even older. Age doesn't really matter. What matters is the quality of the relationship & finding the right person who will love you & treat you with respect.
Also, as for being non-binary, that's not necessarily a turnoff. I have friends who identify as gender fluid, nonbinary, intersex, trans, & gender nonconforming who have partners. It goes back to finding the right person.
On a different note: Does anyone feel like they hit a wall?
I have thought this before. It's like Im doing alright, not great, but alright and then *bam* I hit a wall.
Also, as for being non-binary, that's not necessarily a turnoff. I have friends who identify as gender fluid, nonbinary, intersex, trans, & gender nonconforming who have partners. It goes back to finding the right person.
On a different note: Does anyone feel like they hit a wall?
I have thought this before. It's like Im doing alright, not great, but alright and then *bam* I hit a wall.
“If you know someone who’s depressed, please resolve never to ask them why. Depression isn’t a straightforward response to a bad situation; depression just is, like the weather.” ~Stephen Fry
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My anxiety is rueing my life.. I just wanna be normal...
Hi Cokehore.
Anxiety can be very difficult, especially if it interferes with sleep, one's ability to leave the house, or other normal activities. Is that happening to you?
I personally have anxiety, among other things. However, I know that people experience anxiety differently. Please feel free to tell us more about your anxiety. Is there something in particular that is really stressing you out right now? (For me, I am anxious about moving soon.) Or is it more of a general sense of anxiety all the time?
If you want to use this thread to vent, you can. Feel free to let us know if you want advice or need help finding resources.
Anxiety can be very difficult, especially if it interferes with sleep, one's ability to leave the house, or other normal activities. Is that happening to you?
I personally have anxiety, among other things. However, I know that people experience anxiety differently. Please feel free to tell us more about your anxiety. Is there something in particular that is really stressing you out right now? (For me, I am anxious about moving soon.) Or is it more of a general sense of anxiety all the time?
If you want to use this thread to vent, you can. Feel free to let us know if you want advice or need help finding resources.
“If you know someone who’s depressed, please resolve never to ask them why. Depression isn’t a straightforward response to a bad situation; depression just is, like the weather.” ~Stephen Fry
Living with depression? Connect with others at the Mental Health Check-in.
Living with depression? Connect with others at the Mental Health Check-in.
Life is a fackin drag man. I didn't sign up for this :/
Call me Ezra pls :)
it's hard being a transmasc non binary, but liking presenting feminine. like, i know that i am more masculine on the inside, and my friends know this, but to others, i'm just a girl. i want more than anything to just be an original scene queen but i think my dysphoria would kill me tbh. i'm just so confused. i love make up and skirts and somewhat long hair, but that just keeps others from seeing me as masculine. i'm just tired of constantly debating with myself.
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I had a dream I was in heaven and I met Sophie there. For context, creating music professionally is something I've always wanted to do, and Sophie is one of my favorite artists who I wanted to collab with one day, so I was really upset when she passed. Anyway, in my dream, we were hanging out. She was still making music, and I was hearing some of the new stuff she was working on. In that dream I had the opportunity to go back to Earth, and I asked her (dreams are weird) if she planned on releasing her new songs. She laughed and told me she couldn't, and that it was just for the dead. In a non-malicious way, as heaven was a very peaceful place to be, she told me I should come back if I wanted to hear more.
I'm not religious, I don't believe in an afterlife, let alone one with scheduled concerts, but something about that dream sort of messed me up. I wake up every morning depressed and go through each day depressed, but I felt so much at peace. I get that it was a dream. If I died, I would likely feel nothing. I get how the brain works. I know the Earth has much more music to explore. I know that even though Sophie is gone, A.G. and Charli are still with us and here to keep her memory alive---- it's barely about the content of the dream at this point. It's like my subconscious mind was telling me to end it all, and that if there was an afterlife, I'd be happier there.
I'm not in danger of doing anything, I just don't know how to feel.
I'm not religious, I don't believe in an afterlife, let alone one with scheduled concerts, but something about that dream sort of messed me up. I wake up every morning depressed and go through each day depressed, but I felt so much at peace. I get that it was a dream. If I died, I would likely feel nothing. I get how the brain works. I know the Earth has much more music to explore. I know that even though Sophie is gone, A.G. and Charli are still with us and here to keep her memory alive---- it's barely about the content of the dream at this point. It's like my subconscious mind was telling me to end it all, and that if there was an afterlife, I'd be happier there.
I'm not in danger of doing anything, I just don't know how to feel.
Lei X wrote:
I had a dream I was in heaven and I met Sophie there. For context, creating music professionally is something I've always wanted to do, and Sophie is one of my favorite artists who I wanted to collab with one day, so I was really upset when she passed. Anyway, in my dream, we were hanging out. She was still making music, and I was hearing some of the new stuff she was working on. In that dream I had the opportunity to go back to Earth, and I asked her (dreams are weird) if she planned on releasing her new songs. She laughed and told me she couldn't, and that it was just for the dead. In a non-malicious way, as heaven was a very peaceful place to be, she told me I should come back if I wanted to hear more.Hi Lei, interpreting dreams can be a minefield, some are clear others not so. Perhaps this one is clear to you. Another interpretation (based on the brief description you gave) could be less dark than your interpretation perhaps. For example, in your dream you made the choice to return to earth even though you found heaven really peaceful and you were spending time with someone you really admired who otherwise you would never have the opportunity to spend time with. You gave all that up to return to the turmoil and pain of life on earth. The simple message here may be that you arent ready to leave earth to go to heaven despite all that heaven offers. And regarding Sophie’s offer for you to come back to heaven, I’m not sure if you read that as a temptation to leave your life on earth for good and that is causing you to feel uneasy, but perhaps you could interpret that as being a reminder from a friend who knows that there is a place for you where you can go and relax and get away from the stresses of life but that needn’t necessarily be somewhere final and separate from earth. It could simply be in your head and in your dreams or perhaps accessible through meditation. I don’t have the answer but just wanted to reinforce that there are other perspectives. Don’t force meaning and you will work it out. Take care xx
I'm not religious, I don't believe in an afterlife, let alone one with scheduled concerts, but something about that dream sort of messed me up. I wake up every morning depressed and go through each day depressed, but I felt so much at peace. I get that it was a dream. If I died, I would likely feel nothing. I get how the brain works. I know the Earth has much more music to explore-- it's barely about the content of the dream at this point. It's like my subconscious mind was telling me to end it all, and that if there was an afterlife, I'd be happier there. I'm not in danger of doing anything, I just don't know how to feel.
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