Hey, sorry if this is unusually superficial. I swear I'm not trying to force a character here, I just think you guys might understand this better than other people I'd try to vent to, cause, y'know, bimbo site.
I feel kinda bad about myself right now??? Like, before the pandemic, I was working out a lot, I was buying pink things, I would paint my nails and I had blonde highlights and I wore makeup a lot, I'd look at outfit inspo online and I would spend hours on clothing websites adding stuff to my wishlists, I was trying to find ways to make money to buy the clothes I liked, and I was modeling for a local hair salon.
I think now I'm a lot more depressed, I've gained a lot of weight, it's hard to stick to a hygiene schedule and I spend a lot of the day lying around. I pretty much wear the same 4 outfits, some combination of jeans and a T-shirt. I feel like so many of my fashion/lifestyle goals have been postponed or I've lost interest in them entirely. I haven't worked out consistently in forever, maybe once every other month. I can't even remember the last time I washed my face with soap :(
Obviously, I have way bigger struggles than this with my depression, I just feel really bad because I used to be really pretty and I thought I was gonna be more pretty and I think when quarantine started I went into like-- a depression hibernation?-- and I feel like I've lost myself? I don't feel motivation to take care of myself, let alone doll myself up. I don't like what I see at all. I want the pandemic to end, but I also wish I could get a head start so I don't re-enter the world like... this. I don't feel confident with myself at all, but I don't have the motivation to commit to fashion anymore. Does anyone else struggle with this w/their depression?
I feel kinda bad about myself right now??? Like, before the pandemic, I was working out a lot, I was buying pink things, I would paint my nails and I had blonde highlights and I wore makeup a lot, I'd look at outfit inspo online and I would spend hours on clothing websites adding stuff to my wishlists, I was trying to find ways to make money to buy the clothes I liked, and I was modeling for a local hair salon.
I think now I'm a lot more depressed, I've gained a lot of weight, it's hard to stick to a hygiene schedule and I spend a lot of the day lying around. I pretty much wear the same 4 outfits, some combination of jeans and a T-shirt. I feel like so many of my fashion/lifestyle goals have been postponed or I've lost interest in them entirely. I haven't worked out consistently in forever, maybe once every other month. I can't even remember the last time I washed my face with soap :(
Obviously, I have way bigger struggles than this with my depression, I just feel really bad because I used to be really pretty and I thought I was gonna be more pretty and I think when quarantine started I went into like-- a depression hibernation?-- and I feel like I've lost myself? I don't feel motivation to take care of myself, let alone doll myself up. I don't like what I see at all. I want the pandemic to end, but I also wish I could get a head start so I don't re-enter the world like... this. I don't feel confident with myself at all, but I don't have the motivation to commit to fashion anymore. Does anyone else struggle with this w/their depression?
- hugz <3
