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Haute Coffee Shop

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498

Created
14.12.2019

Author
Freia Dysiac

semi

Level 12
Status: Citizen
Sex Appeal: 1268
Reputation: 1236
Posts: 5

7 0

09.02.2023 14:33:42
semi

i'm so sad and anxious lately, and my anxiety manifests in stomach pain & vomiting as well as panic attacks n whatever.. i feel like i'm a burden on everybody i know and that nobody even actually likes me even though i do my best to be kind to everybody. i'm just really tired and i wish i could sleep forever! i'm tired of feeling like an idiot too, i posted something on a diff site earlier and i got absolutely destroyed for posting it in the wrong thread on accident. like why does it matter? just give it a thumbs down and move on, why do you have to attack me? anyway, today is a good day to just curl up under the covers and immerse myself in virtual worlds instead of the real one that's cold and uncaring

09.02.2023 14:33:42

RyleeBread

Level 16
Status: Citizen
Sex Appeal: 3223
Reputation: 2648
Posts: 293

5 0

11.02.2023 00:28:14
RyleeBread

I entirely understand what you're saying Semi. People really can be the worst sometimes. It can be good to focus on yourself for a while. Trying to relax online can be fun, but spending time with people you trust and are very close with can also help remind you that there are people out in the world that truly care about you. It can also be useful to talk to the people you know about how you feel so that you can get advice from people who know you way better than some stranger on the internet. Currently wishing you good luck <3

11.02.2023 00:28:14

"I thought I came but I peed on the dick" - Sun Tzu, Art of War

Jezebel101

Level 8
Status: Legal Alien
Sex Appeal: 399
Reputation: 539
Posts: 28

3 0

12.02.2023 03:25:18
Jezebel101

Pretty mid I guess things are so monotonous and I lay in bed questioning if anything even matters and I try not to think about it but we good

12.02.2023 03:25:18

im spying on you

StrangeSnow

Level 40
Status: Senator
Sex Appeal: 49774
Reputation: 22433
Posts: 605

6 1

13.02.2023 14:49:44
StrangeSnow

Trigger warning: Eating Disorder

I’m doing shitty honestly. I just got rejected from a job I applied to that I actually really wanted and it’s bothering me. My eating disorder also decided to come back in full swing and I’m definitely not going too hot with that either. I just wanted to get healthy and start working out but that didn’t last very long

13.02.2023 14:49:44

hotpinkminiskirt555

Level 24
Status: Citizen
Sex Appeal: 10759
Reputation: 7654
Posts: 130

9 1

14.02.2023 01:11:58
hotpinkminiskirt555

I feel so stressed out about my relationship, my boyfriend is so well adjusted and he doesnt always understand my humor or know how to talk to me. i wish i was more normal and better at communicating. Its honestly a wholeee thing like that and sometimes i just dont feel too attracted and i wanna just be friends but everynow and then i get reminded that he does love me. So ill accept it, but i feel more sad, mad, angry, anxious and paranoid more often than not.

14.02.2023 01:11:58

he call me sugar cookie cuz i got cocaine in my pussy
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par1s h1lton

Level 27
Status: Citizen
Sex Appeal: 14814
Reputation: 9125
Posts: 644

7 0

20.02.2023 01:45:54
par1s h1lton

oof. been getting slayed a lot recently. i'm missing people who i used to be friends with a hell of a whole lot right now. i just miss feeling like im part of a community. i feel like an outsider wherever i go, and it really sucks to not feel like i belong anywhere.

20.02.2023 01:45:54

ximboglizzy

Level 76
Status: Citizen
Sex Appeal: 343851
Reputation: 26962
Posts: 733

4 0

20.02.2023 23:27:31
ximboglizzy

TW: mentions of childhood abuse

my mom constantly takes my niece (9) and nephew (5) over for the weekends and its been really annoying to put it lightly. more often than not i hear my mom complain about the fact she has no time for herself, she works monday to friday and then takes the kids for the weekends. i've told her several times that nobody is blackmailing her into taking the kids every weekend, it doesn't have to be a constant thing. it can be a once in a while thing and they might appreciate the time they spend at our house more often. i mean, its gotten to the point where she uses me to threaten the kids because when they don't listen to her, i end up being the one to step in. the one thing is that they don't even listen to me anymore. their dad (my brother) encourages us to punish them by spanking, beating and shit and with the physical abuse i've endured in my childhood- i know better than the way that shit doesn't fucking work. back in my day, my dad wasn't around so my mom would always get my brother to 'punish' me or scream at me. at the age of 10 i was constantly being compared to my brothers accomplishments even though hes a whole 17 years older than me. to go back to my niece and nephew i feel sorry for them that my brother is their father but another side of me can't stop comparing how they're being raised compared to me. i'm not saying they have it easy because they get the same name calling treatment as i used to and they get spanked in the butt, but fucks sake- i constantly had my privacy breached from my brother, my mom would whip the absolute living shit out of me whether it was over something big or small, my brother would scream terrible things to me and his wife- whos suddenly SO AGAINST hitting children now that she has her own, would always encourage 'beating' and 'discipline' to my mom with me.. i wasn't allowed to have a phone till i was 17 because of my brother (when i got a job at 15 and bought my own phone and paid for the plan, that lasted around 3 months until i did another minor ((take my word for it when i say minor)) fuck-up and instantly it was taken away and never seen again.) and now his kids are running around with tik tok blasting on their phones full volume and they get in trouble every fucking day for not listening or not doing their chores or whatever the fuck. meanwhile god forbid i cleaned up the whole house and i missed a single spot, i remember my mom telling me to re-clean the whole house and it would result to me staying up and cleaning till 3am. the whole reason i clean up the whole house on my own till this day is once again- because of my brother.. i remember it was because i didn't have a good piano lesson and as a form of discipline i was told to clean up the house to teach me a lesson about how if i don't try hard enough i'll be doing that for a living. again, i was like fucking 12 when this happened. i had my whole life ahead of me to gain other accomplishments that would prove otherwise, i mean in the end i was the only one who actually graduated highschool meanwhile this buffoon dropped out at 17. he has his own business which is successful, but we are not the same fucking people. its so hard to not associate my past with him to how he raises his kids and now they're throwing the kids onto my mom whenever they get the chance and they're trying to mold me into being the same person my brother was to me. only i know how i feel about it all now and the last thing i need is for my niece and nephew to think of me the same way i think of my brother. i've told my mom several times to stop bringing both of them home. they don't behave well when they have each other around, someone pulls someone hair and the other throws a tantrum, or they punch each other and it causes a whole fuss, JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. not to mention whenever i lecture them they start smiling and laughing, i can't get them to take me seriously at all. today was the absolute breaking point and i already accepted i'm the bad guy today but idgaf. the kids sleep in my moms room and i heard my mom yell at them 5 times to go to bed. none of them would listen till i stepped in and told them off. this morning i get woken up by my nephew crying. he was crying for 10 whole fucking minutes because my niece did something to him. then he asks my mom to make food for him but because hes so fucking picky, my mom has to make things from scratch just so he can eat SOMETHING. we're sitting and he fills his mouth with so much food hes not able to swallow it. mom got pissed off, he had to spit half his food out, then when he kept nagging about it and my mom took his plate away, his huge fucking tantrum happened again which ultimately set me off. HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES DO I TELL MY MOM TO STOP THIS SHIT. ''oh but i love them i can't say no to them'' HOLY FUCK. HOLY FUCKING FUCK. all this does to me is thinking about HOW I WAS FUCKING RAISED. NOTHING LIKE THESE KIDS. if i was told no then NO MEANS NO. mom tells me that his wife set a rule that both of them go to our house on the weekends. I FUCKING TOLD HER AGES AGO BEFORE THIS RULE TO NOT FUCKING TAKE THEM BOTH. IT DOES NOT BRING ANYTHING GOOD TO THE TABLE. IT JUST ENDS IN FIGHTING AND ARGUING. GOOOOOOOD GOD. i'm so tired of typing this situation down, but to say i'm mega fucking annoying is an understatement.

20.02.2023 23:27:31

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trashytriniti

Level 16
Status: Legal Alien
Sex Appeal: 2987
Reputation: 2057
Posts: 15

4 0

19.03.2023 18:34:20
trashytriniti

tbh idfk im chillin rn bc i took a fat dump after eating sm food yesterday, i hope everything gets better for yall tho <3

19.03.2023 18:34:20

That Bitch♡

popurinsu_

Level 41
Status: Citizen
Sex Appeal: 54475
Reputation: 34661
Posts: 142

4 0

24.03.2023 21:42:57
popurinsu_

my mother hates me and is super controlling, when I was a teenager and a child she wouldn't let me do anything and now that I'm grown up I've become an extremely insecure and useless adult,
I don't know how to do anything and I can't do anything alone and she doesn't care about me and when she sees the opportunity she deceives me ahaha I don't know how to do anything in my life and I can't do anything alone I want to die I can't take it anymore because my mother deceives me , treats me badly and doesn't love me? why ?

24.03.2023 21:42:57

phdgirlbored

Level 22
Status: Senator
Sex Appeal: 7506
Reputation: 4384
Posts: 15

2 0

26.03.2023 00:29:59
phdgirlbored

I'm totally good except the weather is depressing me. I wish I could move states. I haven't really been able to do but the minimum for homework/reading, but at least now it is Spring Break. Honestly today I felt a bit useless and I've felt that way the entire month, although I guess I made some pretty hopeful steps in my career path and I found a place to live. All areas of life crash down except one that soars. I still feel pretty disappointed at how when the evening comes I feel I hadn't done anything I wanted or needed to do.

26.03.2023 00:29:59

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