honestly im just really tired. my bf and I recently broke up and also its finals week so I'm just tired and stresseddd
how is everyone doing, really? vent to me baby.
i don't know... i've been kind of depressed.
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i'm kinda anxious rn, i didn't work a lot this week and it's not gonna be a good pay check but all i can do is try and pick up more shifts
Moved from "Stress and js letting it out", originally posted at 2022-12-29 22:03:29
I quit my job due to many reasons, one being that the job was physically demanding and also because my mom was the HR. I'm an extremely sickly person, but my job required me to stand the entire day, we were banned from taking a seat for even a moment. They'd often forget to send me on lunch too. My body deteriorated, I was underpaid and rarely got off (often times having 7 day work weeks). My mom has always been cruel and abusive toward me, so the stress from home coming to work, having to work alongside her was too much for me to handle. I was also still a fulltime student but my grades suffered because of a lack of free time. Anyway, I quit and moved out with my boyfriend and I kinda regret it. I miss having freedom by having my own money, we live with his parents and he's the middle child so he gets the worst treatment. We're always being told off or judged, like for being introverted and always being forced to go out. It also feels like they sorta try to make things more expensive so my boyfriend will struggle financially, while his other sibling and significant other don't get the same treatment (they also live here). It's starting to take a toll on me because we have no privacy, I'm even more depressed than before. 
ive been really looking forward to finish a huge tattoo project for almost 2 years. saved up, researched an artist, got that shit done. i feel eternally better without thinking that i must save up, other than that i just feel empty. its not that i dont have any other hobbies or interests, its more like ive been chasing and cutting corners for my most interests for the past 24months and now i dont even feel like forcing myself to get back to my older hobbies. it might seem superficial but i think its a bitter truth that by chasing smaller goals we ignore something more universal/global
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at least christmas will feel somewhat fulfilling this year :)
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at least christmas will feel somewhat fulfilling this year :)
ehh not doing 2 hot, not rlly on speaking terms w my dad rn and my mom is being sorta toxic again :p started slacking w going to the gym which always affects my mental wellbeing but once im in a gym slump its hard 2 get out again
just p bummed out at the moment, might ask my psychiatrist if i can get a higher dose of sertraline lol :p
just p bummed out at the moment, might ask my psychiatrist if i can get a higher dose of sertraline lol :p
on wednesdays, thursdays, fridays, saturdays, sundays, mondays and tuesdays, we wear pink x <3
I'm actually pretty good for the first time in my life and trying to keep things that way :')
dealing with moving and all so stuff's been stressful, but other than that my bf's the only thing keeping me sane lmao
pms sadness and insecurities are trolling me
she/they
like peoples forum posts and comments.comment more than you receive and ill make sure to comment on your profile!
slowly getting better, still feel like i'm not supposted to be here though
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